Who am I? - Peter Varholak

Soldiers attention!

This is the most common werb pattern I used to listen in last ten years of my life in work.

So who I had been? When I was a kid I wanted to be a woodchopper. I like nature- hills, mountains, woods, rivers, seas and nature wonders and powers like wind, thunderstorm, sunshine, sunset and many others. When I was little older I had to choose my school and I wanted to be specialized. My choices were hotel school and language school. Then I was confronted with reality and my mother persuaded me that the secondary grammar school is the best choice.

Couple years later I stood before another choice. I wanted to be a pilot, physicist or other thing that I had finally chosen. My choice supported idea of being in nature, hard training, acces to secret information and discovering how to lead people. It was partially fulfilled in my future career as reconnaissance and intelligence student at military academy and later as reconnaissance platoon commander. So I finaly become highly trained military officier leading elite team of around twenty people and four heavy armoured fighting vehicles armed to the teeth in every environment and in every conditions capable of everything. I was living with them and literally "dying" with them. The environment and conditions were tough and they taught me a lot. But I missed something a lot in the army. I missed freedom. Freedom of choice, freedom of traveling, freedom of doing things, freedom of meeting interesting people, freedom of creativity and freedom of talking to other sex and hear things from other perspective. Can you imagine that in the work there is six hundred people and only ten of them are females? So I decided to leave the army and fulfil my dreams.

I want to live my life and explore. I want to travel a lot. My dream country is China. I want to do adrenaline things like paragliding. I want to dance masterfuly like crazy. I want to speak and behave like champion. I want to play like child. I want to rebel against social norms. I want to feel like invincible. I need to feel that I am alive.

I wanted to forget my past but I want to fight my fears till the end. So my past finally cought me. I didn´t want to believe it till recent days. Then I saw a little classification credited to David de Angelo. He divided people into four categories and I was exactly in warrior part.

So who am I really? Sometimes rebel, sometimes explorer, sometimes even child, but definitelly always dancing warrior loving freedom and nature.